Learning to trust Him more
I didn’t really plan to start a vlog today, but sometimes you just have to jump in. Things aren’t going the way I hoped. Fundraising, making connections, trying to get Kingdom Vision off the ground—it’s all been a lot harder than I expected.
I’m starting a new change, actually doing some work, even if I don’t have a full project funded or planned yet.
Here’s an example I just did. There’s a church near my house that puts out signs every Tuesday that say “Drive Thru Prayer.” I’ve seen them before, but I don’t know anything about it. I just knew God was doing something there, and I figured most of their congregation probably didn’t know what was happening there. So I stopped and asked if I could capture it.
They said yes.
No plan. No prep. Just thirty minutes of shooting and a few hours editing.
Drive Thru Prayer
This is the video I shot about the Drive Thru Prayer. Check it out and see what God is doing!
Trying, Failing, Learning
If you saw my last vlog, you know I’ve been working on raising funds for Kingdom Vision, going from looking for ongoing funds in general to also looking for funds for specific projects. But honestly? That hasn’t gone how I hoped either.
I’ve raised an embarrassingly small amount of money so far. When people ask me, “How’s it going?” I hate it becuase I really don’t know how to answer. I’ve had a lot of meetings. Sent a lot of emails. Met some great people. There’s potential in those things, but nothing yet.
And the thing God keeps teaching me, again and again, is to trust Him.
God Provides (Even When You Can’t See It Yet)
My brother-in-law gave me a book a while back called Faith Driven Entrepreneur, which I read. I didn’t think of myself as an entrepreneur, but that’s exactly what I’m doing. I’m trying to build something that hasn’t existed before, and that’s hard.
This week, I remembered a chapter in there: Faithfulness vs. Willfulness. One sentence in there summed it up pretty well: “God’s will being done through our urgency, our conviction, and our power isn’t God’s will at all”. It’s not about me grinding harder. It’s about trusting Him.
There’s a passage in Mark 8 where Jesus has just fed 4,000 people, and His disciples are still worried in the boat afterward because they don’t have enough bread. Jesus says, “Do you not yet perceive or understand? Are your hearts hardened?”
That’s me. God has provided for me over and over and over again, won’t he provide for me now?
Doing the Work Anyway
So I made that drive-thru-prayer video. No plan. No funding. Just trying to follow where God was leading.
And when I delivered it, the pastor loved it. He said, “You got yourself a customer.” That wasn’t the goal, but it reminded me, this is what I’m supposed to be doing. Telling stories of what God is doing. Serving churches. Encouraging believers.
Seeing what God is doing and helping others see it too. That’s Kingdom Vision.
Next Steps (and Still Trusting)
I’m heading to Kansas next week to spend the week shooting video of a ministry there. They offered to pay me for that week, which is great, but again, that’s not the point. The point is to do the work God’s given me, trust Him to make it work out.
Hudson Taylor said, “God’s work done in God’s way will never lack God’s supply.” That’s the God I’m trusting in.
I’m still early in this. Still figuring things out. Still needing provision. But I’m putting effort into actually doing the work, not to give up the other things, but to do the work and trust God to provide for His work.
So How’s It Going?
Tomorrow, if people ask how it’s going, I’ve got a story to tell. Not a finished story. Not a success story, exactly. But a beginning.
It’s about trusting God